A piece of advice ...

Advice for girls: When someone is romantically involved with you.... see his 'words' to judge his 'intentions' ; but pay attention to see his 'actions' to judge his 'commitment' towards intentions .

i love you

love you ........
but dont ask me if i loved
then why i m not there with you

then it hurts to think of all
and me alone here .. alone without you

still i can say i love you

what do i do
its so impossible to not think about you

what do i do
its tough to forget you
even for a minute ...
even when i am at work ..
even when i am not at work ..
life is giving continuous jerk
reminding of you ......

what do i do .......................
i have nothing else ...
than saying i love you

dont mistrust me , It hurts
i am alone, kindly learn ...
i am helpless now ...
wanting and losing other see ...

i question him ...
why do i have always cried...
dont i have right to get satisfied....

i will say ..you take care
that comes from my every breath
when i think of you ...
be safe and happy even if you are not here ...take care...

i love you , as far i know myself
i will love you ...as far as i know myself
may god help you ....

there hasnt been a single day,
when i have not done my all ..
in making your things best ,
tried to be a strength of yours ...
in spring and fall ....

thats what i feel ...
though from your side
it might not be something that can heal ...

kindly understand...
its time i need you ...
a lot more than ever ....
please be with me ....
i know you are away ...much more away
very far than ever ....

still maximum we can gift each other
is a continuous smile....
just because we love ....
so only we can smile .....
smile ............lets try to smile ...............

take care ....love you

Me , my husband and SRK Vs Amitabh

if you are true indian must be a fan of bollywood and cricket and if you are fan of cricket then you must be fan of sachin tendulakar OR if you are a bollywood freak then you HAVE to be fan of Amitabh that's what i learnt after my marriage.

This is about me who had no interest in watching movies before i got married, for me it was a waste of precious time which i could spend deep in either slumber or in my self help books. But you know, you will see that Its some trick of God that he makes two opposite poles to get married so that those joke books which are getting high sales on the basis of "miya biwi jokes" keep getting sold.
But in any case It happens...that's an undeniable fact .I have couples of my age all around me, cribbing over their differences in nature. Sometimes i feel, how bad GOD must be in organizing people, For If i can see that husband of couple 'X' suits more to wife of couple 'Y' then why cant he see the simple fact !! ..
But i guess he also enjoys these little mirchi fights and why wont he ? If i was given a chance
to edit BIG BOSS to make it a bit better then Would i ever remove those mirchi masala fights no never !! Everyone enjoys them ..May be god also is enjoying challenges in his worldly game by bringing unlike people together and
On the other side who knows what all differences then would have come into light when these two similar looking would have been together ..
Actually there is nothing that exist and called "perfect matching couple" as once i read in a mail that "Happily Married" is an oxymoron(is a combination of words wherein two words are opposite in meaning from each other).
Oh i forgot yeah i was telling about my routine face to face struggle with amitabh bachchan in small house of mine.

Its like I mistakenly dared to like SRK as many girls like me do.Now my husband, as must be "diamond clear" till now, was in opposite party. A movie "chak de india" got released just after our union in the 'lifetime bond of marriage' but at that time i wasnt much aware of the other affair of my husband (yeah i dont mind mentioning it now , i accepted it very soon that its there). But i realized it when i heard all criticism of SRK's chak de india as of every other movie which i ever liked in my life, Of SRK , like devdas etc and eulogy for Big B.
But surprising was the fact that critics in papers were praising movie but the only critic who used to criticise movie, was in my house.
Then slowly i got to know the actual reason behind that low rating of "chak de india" in my house.It was, no wonder no doubt that i was dwelling in Amitabh bachchan ji's ilaakaa(in hindi) .

If he doesnt mind me disclosing it then you know sometimes i feel he has some past life relationship with Big B.As slowly his walking,speaking,dressing ,dancing everything has started resembling to Big B more than what abhishek bachchan's does.

From then any movie means you can name any movie in which Big B is there we used to watch it in mutiplex on the pretext of good movie .As if he can never be in a flop movie and vice versa is also true.
The Most interesting part of story is My husband never accepts frankly that its amitabh only he is going for.What he claims is Movie is so good
"From past 1 year everyone says its gonna be Big B's best performance ever !! What dhamaka BIg B will do this time!!"
You can clearly see shine in his eyes for his all time love , inflated pupils, childlike excitement, oblivious of all hullabaloo of life. There has been times when we were in non talking terms but because of BIg B's new release he patched up so that we could go together to watch it.On similar lines there has been times when we are so cozy in every term and i tried to prove exaggerated hype of BIG B and ended up with divorcing chaos between us.

Still in his words "its not for BIG B, we are watching movie just because its a good movie".
As all Men you know, they cant give up on ego. Then i gave into his likings and accepted whole heartedly that Big B is the BEST.
Now My man says "see i told you even my younger brother Sonu accepted one day that Big B is best ...even you have accepted it now ..everyone will some day."
Then i thought of course sneakingly "i can understand what all torture Sonu had to go through when he would not be liking Big B" .............
Then i would say its not that without reason i call him GANGSTER ....... :)

he would kill me if he reads it .................

after marriage

I have been a girl who always wanted to remain spinster I used to search as many supporting personalities to my ideologies....the women liberation favouring girl with countless grudges from man community never thought that one day i would like a man !!!!!!!!!!!
..yes people used to ask me whom will you like i thought no no at least nobody from of all them surrounding me ...I used to find some or other fault in them and then again the statement "i don like men" .....
in college time me my studies my career my family took priority over everything else ..coz i really believe that collegiates are not mature enough to decide life long partner..but this just meant other way also that as my college ended i thought myself mature enough to take my decisions hmmmmm....there came my so called mature age where i found my partner ...

I joined BARC after MBT we training course of 1 yr together and i found only one man i was attracted to and i thought to sit beside him and he you know the first man who just talked like hell to me i took many chances but he never gave me a look back even and after just a few days he changed his seat ...the last thing i could imagine had happened with me ....

i thought he is from calcutta i learnt a few bengali songs and started humming them daily before him without knowing that he is the one hates fron bengalis ......:) and Caught again ...everything went against me ..then i tried to put my knowledge skills to tell him if you don understand sth i will tell you without knowing at all that he had been topper in his college with no intention ever to learn things from people specially from girls ....and so on i applied my brain tricks they resulted into brain hammers :)) ....and finally i declared him "saru"(hindi) so that was what we call grapes are sour :)) and I LEFT HIM (or he left me that no body knows yet )....................

for one year i never told anybody abt it then after one year we got job on same floor and i had he as only known person i could have luch with i went to him with all apprehensions asked for lunch ...he came with heart full of no but cd not refuse (don know from where now he brought this chivalry) we took one two three and many lunches together then movies then "yeh to hona hi tha" ....
we are married today ....
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