Monday, June 7, 2010

It may not be apparent -- but i have possibilities ...

We know ourselves only that much as is told by people around us , about us.

I know myself, assuring it i make a statement about myself, based on the few events i remember involving me.
But those are only "events",its not necessary that for same event our reaction will be same next time too.For a particular event our reaction is sum of total state of mind , people, environment at that particular time.That doesnt give us a factual knowledge about who we are .
Resultantly when we make a statement about us, we feel doubtful, Am i like that ? will i always behave like that ?
And then in our doubtful state , people around us overpower our thoughts, start controlling our image in our eyes.We start trusting what they tell us , about who we are !!

Now important point is, That observation by people is again based on just events.Still we trust
it and make it truth of our life.

How could someone summarize me when i am, who is living every moment with myself, is so unsure about me?
"you cant do it.I know you "As My friend tells me......
How could someone know me in entirety? There can be thousand unraveled aspects of mine,
with which i might do wonders, which might falsify him totally ...... Yes it may ...

But before pointing anyone for inducing self inferiority in me ... i should ask myself ....At this stage of life , some very simple but pertinent questions ..

Why have i stopped experimenting,exploring with new things, considering benchmarks of my life's few good/bad experiences ? Does getting more experience mean becoming so rigidly intellectual that we dont give IT a try at least ?How can i assume its all i know about "me" and nothing more than that is left which will astonish me ?

Do i dare to meddle with unknown today, as i used to when i was single ?Moreover Did i dare to play with frightening unknowns as i could when i was a child ?

It seems then i was naive on earth wrapped in innocence of childhood , could take any challenge. As i dint know stairs once but without making long risk analysis i tried it yeah!! i just tried it once and many more times..I remember falling from my bicycle so many times before i could just ride it in my street, from one end to other, smoothly.
Important thing is falling at that time never added more weight to my shoulders as it does today , rather it excited me wonderfully.
As growing old on the earth , i am becoming more aware , i am becoming more knowledgeable , with that i am becoming more fearful.yes in very simple words FEARFUL......

Sounds so unfamiliar may be "Whom do i fear ?" One might question ...
I say "from everything..." we have stopped living with free spirit , have stopped being IMPROMPTU Its planning planning planning --- for everything is result of fear, we have, from everything that has possibility to happen in future.

I myself felt my whole day goes in maintaining tiny things ,pending lists of tasks, so that life next day goes smooth , but then i stop and wonder .. Where has life lost in between ????? .........................
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Things to organize life, so that we can enjoy later, has consumed whole life itself ...
One of my friend spends time in cleanliness of house to the extent that before she gets time to enjoy that cleanliness turn of next round of cleanliness comes :)
Even I myself sometime while exercising tire myself so much , that when it comes time to work with "that healthy body" i tend to sleep .....
you know someone said .....i spent whole life in stringing and unstringing my guitar to play best music piece some day.

in brief what i mean to say we will have to see priority of things to see our " possibilities" , Certain things are just to smoothen flow of life that is not LIFE itself


We should wake up knowing that its a new life of one day span and sleep thinking one life is over That means Every day i should balance between Enjoyment and Work and instead of leaving enjoyment pending for some other day, some other month OR to some other unpredictable but Planned year !! .

Should hug challenges with the excitement of seeing unknown colors of life as after every such challenge i come out more stronger.Should not anticipate my capabilities and should never even let others to do that
as its impossible to anticipate what i am upto

.........and simplest funda is live everyday Fully ...
enjoy it love everyone around Its too small span of life to hate people ... Love and stay happy Enjoy what we do ............

1 comment:

Swati Gaur Dharmapurikar said...

Nice thought.....Each one of us is aware of it but still oblivious.
Its always good to read your blog, either its humorous or packed with enlightening thoughts, but every time it leaves an impact.